1.What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before? i became engaged, married and a dad

2.What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009? less of a tummy, my associates degree

3.What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory? oct 14th and june 24th

4.What was your biggest achievement of the year? starting to budget a lot better

5.What was your biggest failure? not finishing school
6.Did you suffer illness or injury? i got the flu, and food poisoning

7. What was the best thing you bought? a video camera

8. What behavior merited celebration? the birth of my daughter

9. What behavior made you appalled and depressed? my wifes baby blues

10. Where did most of your money go? bills, bills, bills

11. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? in the middle still
b) thinner or fatter? im probably bigger haha
c) richer or poorer? poorer in the end

12. What do you wish you’d done more of? read, focused more on school

13. What do you wish you’d done less of? eaten

14. How did you spend Christmas? at my in laws and my parents houses

15. Did you fall in love in 2009? yes

16. What was your favorite TV program? modern family, glee

17.Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? not that i can think of, just some co workers

18. What was the best book you read? hard boiled wonderland and the end of the world

19. What was your greatest musical discovery? lady gaga

20. What did you want and get? a vacation

21. What did you want and not get? a flatscreen, and a ps3 haha

22. What was your favorite film of this year? up

23. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? stayed a night in oktoberfest up in the mtns. turned 27

24. What one thing would have made your year better? more sleep

25. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009? scrubs haha

26. What kept you sane? baby

27. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most: lady gaga

28. What political issue stirred you the most? anything my in laws would bring up at dinner i had to leave the table

29. Who did you miss? friends just hanging out regularly

30. Who was the best new person you met? just my co workers

31. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009: having a baby is 10x harder then youd think

yeh i dont really know what to write in here

im done for a whole month of school in the mean time im just doing volunteer work and studying for a math exam that i have to take in 2 weeks... and then i have summer school 4 classes

math
english
psych
and jazz dance which is what im looking forward to the most i love dance classes a lot..

life is kinda dull otherwise..
i feel like crap i have a bad cold stupid makeout =\

in the fall im taking 2 regular classes and the EMT certification course which counts as 10 credits towards my degree.. fuckin rad im so excited..

im very broke which makes for an even duller life.. thank god i have a library card.. haha =D

anyways i think thats it
im starving but im excited to dance tonight and volunteer at super adoptions with the lezboatcarpetmuncher peoples tomorrow

<3

i just want it to be over already so it can begin again

interesting

tricklighting's Existing Situation

Volatile and outgoing. Needs to feel that events are developing along desired lines, otherwise irritation can lead to changeability or superficial activities.


tricklighting's Stress Sources

Has an unsatisfied need to ally himself with others whose standards are as high as his own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates him and inhibits his readiness to give himself freely. While he wants to surrender and let himself go, he regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, he feels, will lift him above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.


tricklighting's Restrained Characteristics

Willing to participate and to allow himself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.

Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult for him to form a stable emotional attachment.


tricklighting's Desired Objective

Wants to make a favorable impression and be rewarded as a special personality. Is therefore constantly on the watch to see whether he is succeeding in this and how others are reacting to him; this makes him feel that he is in control. Uses tactics cleverly in order to obtain influence and special recognition. Susceptible to the esthetic or original.


tricklighting's Actual Problem

Greatly impressed by the unique, by originality, and by individuals of outstanding characteristics. Tries to emulate the characteristics he admires and to display originality in his own personality.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i wanna pull my hair out and sleep

i wish i could enter some smart or witty entry

right now im feeling pretty damn pessimistic about life and some of the people in it
those that know me i try really damn hard to be the opposite of that

i wouldnt say im in a rut im almost done with my freshman year of college and i have a lot going on with school, but everything else seems to be like bs and im worried that me worrying about everything else is going to affect my school work =|
bleh

i need a vacation really badly like REALLY badly.. =\

i dont know

i just wanna break shit

i cryed so hard last night like it had been sitting inside me for some time
it felt good but it was awful still and bleh..
i couldnt even see this morning my eyes were so swollen

i need to get out more and put myself out there for things...

yeh i dont know im totally just rambling this doesnt do anything for me =|

Something wicked this way comes

Mother fucker!!!

sometimes i feel like im in a rut other days i dont..

its nice to know that i could finally get an appointment to see a primary care provider in a couple weeks
ive been trying for 3 months to find one with my shitty insurance
i hope she can find whatever is plaguing my lower left abdomen especially with how many tests ive already gone through earlier this year
sometimes i feel like its getting worse other days i dont notice it...

school seems to be overwhelming some days and others i think its a breeze theres only 4 weeks left of school which kinda freaks me out cuz if i dont get super good grades like 4.0 this semester i fuck up my chances for a scholarship, ive been working for it but i find myself slacking a lot still..
i think its mostly cuz theyre too easy, to the point where i dont really put a ton of effort into them even though i should..

everything is caught up with the bankruptcy matter i was in debt a lot more then i actually knew as well.. haha but i still have to sit through a hearing with the trustee and my lawyer so thats annoying..

i found out that rent is being extended on broadway till sept. so im working on a subplot to make my way out there only if its a few days this summer in between semesters..

thats about it..

<3

eating raisin bran while contemplating life..

i keep getting grumpier and grumpier
i got tattooed yesterday and im just not really happy about what happened, i love them but the cost was way more than usual so yeh not coo..

anyways
ive yet to finish all of my homework and i only have 2 days left
ive barely been home though or really taken time out of my day to do it, im too concerned with this bankruptcy business its driving me up a wall for how big a process it is.. bleh

anyways
still have a shit ton of homework which im sure knowing me im gonna do it all on sunday.. which is fine, the pressure gives me the motivation anyways

im just burnt out on life mostly right now i wanna just spend a whole day doing nothing but sleeping or reading or something
without being worried about the next day, or the day before..

im super fucking tired but i had this brilliant idea to wash my comforters at this time in the night and now i can barely keep my eyes open

jackie beat better be fuckin awesome or im gonna break something..
sleepppppppppppppp
anyways

bens in town and max, nic, ben and i all played the new super smash which is awesome of course
and tomorrow is ginas birthday dinner sooo yeh
ill be throwing some food of sorts together for that even though i was planning on doing it at nicoles before hand but the spare key mysteriously disappeared haha

oh well
anyways
yeh just killing time here mostly